Day 27: Meditation Challenge ~ What Does Calm Look Like?
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Today, I have a meditation treat. A testimony to the power of meditation by one of our Challenge participants!
Blogger, Michele Fischer, contacted me about what meditation means to her and how it has impacted her life. I appreciated her perspective so much. It's fresh, insightful, and empowering! Thank you, Michele, for being part of the Challenge and sharing your thoughts with us!
What Calm Looks Like
by Michele Fischer
In my studies with yoga, meditation and mindfulness I have created in my head this picture of what calm is, what centered and at peace looks like.
Generally the picture is something like this: A beautiful meadow with a yogini sitting-cross-legged in the middle, eyes closed able to walk through life in this exact state. He never raises his voice, never loses patience and enjoys a kind of euphoria on earth.
It’s no wonder why I found it nearly impossible to create a daily meditation practice when I had set as a goal an almost impossible intention. Was it truly my goal to be in a state of peace and calm or was I trying to achieve a state that would be void of any sort of conflict and turmoil? When I stopped to really think about what it was I was trying to achieve through my spiritual practice and what I truly wanted, meditation took on an entirely new meaning for me.
As spiritual beings we are here to experience life in a way that can only be done by, well, living it—both the good and the bad. I’ve started to slowly, very slowly, realize that being centered, focused and spiritual has nothing at all to do with our circumstances and everything to do with our perspective and reaction to what life hands us.
For me, my true lesson came when I stopped focusing on having a life that would be void of conflict and discourse and rather looked at how I was handling things, what my internal dialog was when these things occurred and ultimately how I would like to handle such situations in the future.
One of my biggest turning points related to a normally touchy subject for me and that was my job. It has always been my dream to be a writer and I viewed whatever job I had as hindrance to that goal. My inner monologue would go something like this, “Someday I want to have a job that allows me to write, to spend my days doing what I love!” While focusing on the writing was a positive, the way in which I was doing it wasn’t and by just shifting and refocusing my eyes a tiny bit, the whole world changed the way it looked to me.
Instead of saying, “someday when I can write,” I started writing. There was nothing preventing me from doing this except for my preconceived notion, story if you will, of what being a writer had to look like. I wanted to write so I did. I also started to make my job my own, doing things in such a ways as they were in align with my own skills, attributes and talents and as a result the most amazing thing happened; my job no longer became a source of stress! Instead of it being this time consuming thing that prevented me from writing it was the thing that allowed me the ability to write.
My meditation practice changed also. As a result of taking note of the inner monologue I was having, I realized that my lapse with meditation was nothing more than my own preconceived notions keeping me from meditating. In my mind you needed to be sitting in a space set up for meditation, candles lit, soft music playing and you needed to sit for a minimum of 20 minutes to calm and center yourself. Instead, I started using my moments of awareness, when I was taking note of that inner dialog to stop, breathe and ground myself-you know, meditate!
So while I do still love a good candle lit, incense burning meditation session I have brought meditation into the “real world” for me and made it a part of not only my life but in how I approach the people and events in that life.
Visit Michele Fischer's blog, to read more of her thoughts.
See what I mean? Fresh .... insightful ... empowering. Thank you, again, Michele, this was just great!
Blessings,
Jan
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From Where I Sit — Day 27, My Meditation ExperienceI sat zazen with Jundo again. Is there such a thing as bad zazen ("sitting practice") he asks? I loved his perspective on resistance and busy mindedness. I sat in silence after that. Click here.
Resources:
I've appreciated the music of Deva Premal for many years. Her use of mantra and chant has often deepened my meditation practice. You may enjoy this video of her sharing and singing the Gayatri Mantra to a talking circle of teen girls. Her translation of the Gayatri Meditation: "May all beings living on the planet be in light." Inspiration:
From one of my very favorite coffee table books:
As the Buddhist author, Richard St. Ruth says, 'Buddha means "awakened", so when we start to meditate we are working towards an awakening. However, if we assume, as in Zen, that we are Buddha from the beginning, then it becomes a question of staying in that time or moment so that we can reawaken our Buddhahood. As practitioners become more experienced, they are able to stay in a contemplative state regardless of circumstance or time. This awakeness therefore transcends both physical and mental states. One of the principal teachings of Tibetan Buddhism uses the analogy of a bird flying through space. This is how we should live our lives, by staying in the moment and not leaving tracks.'
~From Spaces for Silence, by Alen Macweeney and Caro Ness


17 comments:
I do love the idea of capturing those aware moments, rather than feeling I HAVE to sit and meditate with earth-shattering success each day.
And it really all is, as Michele points out, about how we handle our internal dialogue.
Wonderful and inspiring! Thanks.
"I’ve started to slowly, very slowly, realize that being centered, focused and spiritual has nothing at all to do with our circumstances and everything to do with our perspective and reaction to what life hands us."
This is so true Michelle. I'm so happy to hear that you have let go of the "story" of optimal meditation...optimal, perfect living. We are meant to live, with all the struggles...to be present to what is in any given moment...anger arises, pain arises, joy arises, peace arises...and it is all part of the wholeness of human experience.
Thanks again Jan for another inspiring post and introducing us to yet another soulful pilgrim.
These are really great points. With so many things in our life there is a tendency to apply pre-conceived notions that hold us back and tie us down. Thank you, Michelle, for pointing out your way of breaking free, it is inspirational!
And thank you Jan, for these wonderful 27-days of inspiration!
I completely resonate with what Michele is saying! I have been able to hear my internal dialogue, and not just hear it, but BE PRESENT with it, for probably the first time in my life just the last few years. I am not sure why/how, but I do think that having a sitting practice helped me develop this ability "off the cushion."
As time has gone on, I have noticed more and more moments of mindfulness emerging in my days. I feel very grateful to be brought to life in this way.
Thank you, Michele, for articulating this process so well, and thank you Jan, again, for your series!
Jannie,
I'd like to believe that we can cultivate the practice of living, walking, breathing, observing through all the days of our lives with conscious attention—as much attention as we offer ourselves while "sitting." At least this is my highest hope. Sound like yours too!
Laura,
I love the idea of letting go of the story line about everything (as you know from the conference call). To be with what arises with grace and dignity, ah, that is an "accomplishment."
What calm looks like ~ this post reminds me so much of something Ralph Waldo Emerson wrote that I have also written about - that we create peace and poise of mind not because we're out sitting in a meadow or (in my case) relaxing on white sandy beaches sipping on a fruity drink but because turmoil is all around us.
Egos and other people's stories and dramas...it's when we can be in the world but not of the world...
Excelletn post!!
Peggy
This is so beautiful! I think it is definitely so important to simply begin from wherever we are. I love the words "calm" and "soothe" especially for the mind! Sometimes I just get too many thoughts whirring.
I also like this part shared:
[As spiritual beings we are here to experience life in a way that can only be done by, well, living it—both the good and the bad.]
soft blessings to you, Jenn
Excellently said. One of my favourite quotes goes something like this: "Peace is not the absence of worry and chaos, but the ability to remain calm in the midst of all those things."
Blessings,
Carolynn
I definitely need to remember this. I was dealing with a lot of anger the other day and I have to admit thinking, for a few seconds anyway, "Hey, I've been meditating for three weeks, how come I'm still angry?!?" So, OK, meditation is not about complete cessation of conflict and turmoil - but how you handle it! I can live with that.
Thank you!
Michele... i really appreciate your perspective and sharing what meditation is becoming in your life... i see meditation as something dynamic and static... the value of sitting in meditation is how we can take into our life a way of being that responds rather than reacts... after all, we don't sit on a cushion 24 hours a day...
i also love what you say about your writing... you want to be a writer?... if you write, you are a writer :)
wonderfully written and heartfelt post... thank you Jan and Michele for the most uplifting ending to a bit of a stormy day...
oops... meant to say dynamic, not static... proofreading before publishing is a good mantra for me :)
Jodi,
This is definitely a "let's break free" post, isn't it? Truly inspiring, and applies to anything that holds us back from being all that we can be. I am sure Michele appreciates the affirmation.
Stacy,
On or off the cushion, I agree. It is definitely about being present with what is, even if it is difficult. Riding it out, breathing through it, and learning what we need to learn from it. Smells like freedom to me. (LOL)
Peggy,
Thank for the Emerson link. I had no idea and this passage is quite profound. "Poise of mind" is a phrase that really resonates....
Jenn,
Those two words are quite magical aren't they? They seem to ease the mind just by focusing on them....
Carolynn,
I love that quote too. :-) Was it Gandhi who said it perhaps? Does anyone know? It surely invites Presence.
Rochelle,
What a great noticing you've had. What's interesting is that, in time, just from the noticing and "being with", we do get more peace-filled by osmosis. Definitely an organic process...
I would like to thank everyone for their kind words and for taking the time to read my entry! I would also like to thank Jan for not only indulging me and allowing me to use her inspirational blog as a medium to share my work, but for her wonderful challenge. It is your blog Jan, that was the inspiration (and realization) for this entry!
Thank you to everyone for your support and taking the time to post. Happy Meditating!
Jan I just watched/listened to the Deva Premal video.
I felt transported on so many levels. First as she spoke to the girls, I slipped back in time to the girls groups I used to lead...such a beautiful, heart opening time for all of us.
And then as she started to chant I felt myself being slowly pulled into the center of the music, into the sweet center of my own being. And then Miten started to sing and the flute player to gently add his harmony too...just a spiral of warmth and love.
Thank you SO much for sharing this.
xoxo
Laura
Ps...what a wonderful way to begin Day 28-can you believe this is now day 28? It has been such a lovely space for learning, sharing...We are all so blessed to now be connected because YOU brought us all together here Jan.
blessings, blessings upon you my friend
Joanne,
Your words ring so true! To me, our journey is about "being" meditation in the world. :-)
I really appreciate your encouragement of Michele as a writer. May we all accept our gifts and talents and use them without reservation in the world!
Michele,
You are most welcome! It was such a pleasure to post your insightful words here. Obviously, you can see by the comments, that your sharing touched many hearts. Thank you for your support of the Challenge. And may all the days of your meditation practice continue to be blessed. And your writing too!
Laura,
I am so glad that you found Deva Premal enlivening. I do love her work and one of her cd's that features the Gayatri Mantra is so transporting. Check out this music video of Miten singing, "Through the Eyes of An Angel." Lovely!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPNmIBaZVfM
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