Day 6: Meditation Challenge - Back to Basics
Welcome, to my 28-Meditation Challenge.
If you have joined us late, that is just fine. If you'd like to "officially" join in, simply leave a comment here that says, "I'm in!" and I will add you to the Challenge Roster. Or, send me an e-mail through the Contact Box at my website: awakenedliving.com. You may want to catch up by reading the previous posts. We are glad you are here!
Each day we come here, even if we have not meditated as we'd hoped, we begin again.
Start where you are ...
It's time to "ask an expert."
I've posed a question to my dear friend, Mari Gayarti Stein, an exceptionally gifted author, artist (she created the illustration above), and meditation and yoga teacher from Oregon. I trust her. She's been teaching both for many years and has assisted me greatly on my spiritual journey.
Here's my question to Mari:What is your best piece of advice for beginning meditators?
I loved what she said. Short, sweet, and back to basics.
~Get regular. Set a time and keep to it on a daily basis.
~Get instruction from a teacher -- object of focus and specific
techniques, simple is good.
~Get group support if available.
~Use a tape/CD if necessary part of the time for support.
So, if you are a beginning meditator, or jumpstarting an old practice, how does what you are doing match up to the list?
Here's my personal assessment:
~ I admit, I am not regular. I am doing "something" every day, but that is about it. It varies from morning to noon to night.
~ I am getting instruction from a teacher. We have a long distance teaching relationship. We speak for one hour each month over the telephone. We connect mid-month (or whenever I need it) via e-mail.
~ I have plenty of group support. YOU!
~ I do use a Cd when I need one to keep me on track.
So, I guess 3 out of 4 isn't bad. Just curious, how do you match up to Mari's recommendations?
I ask this question of you—not to be one of the Meditation Police—but because meditation is a practice worth committing to. That, after all, is why I created this 28-Day Challenge. I know meditation is good for me (very good!), I was not making the time to do it, and I needed to be accountable. I desired to embrace meditation as one of my primary spiritual "disciplines."
Note the word—discipline.
Truth be told, not many of us like discipline. The word itself may strike terror in our hearts, just like when my fourth grade teacher used to whack her yardstick on my desk to get the class' attention.
But discipline, framed correctly builds fortitude, inner strength, and determination. It builds skills that carry us through difficult times. It creates a practice that we an always depend on, no matter what is happening around us, which means—we can depend on ourselves and our inner reserves, our inner wisdom, to get through life.
Yesterday, Caroline, made a wonderful comment here, very timely, in alignment with my question to Mari. She said:
"I feel like my meditation is a little "funky." I can't seem to fit in a good chunk of time to just sit. I literally find "moments". This morning I pulled an Angel Card and meditated for just a few minutes on the meaning (the card I pulled was "power"). I just sat for a few minutes and pondered what that meant.
And that's it. When I was done, I wondered to myself...is this really enough? Is this good enough?"
My answer to her could be "discipline." Discipline will tell you if what you are doing is enough ... This is how I responded to Caroline yesterday:
It is very important to listen deeply to know if we are procrastinating, not taking time, running away from meditation, etc. to know if what we are doing is enough. It's so easy with any of our spiritual practices to do just enough to get by. We do not allow our spiritual practices to take us to the edge, beyond our comfort zones, and let them teach us.
When it gets a little uncomfortable, we go find another practice that is not as challenging, more fun... Do you know what I mean?
Only you will know from deep listening to your truest self if your "enough" is enough. Does that make sense????
My sense (for me) is that the discipline of sitting meditation will really be good for me—when the time is right. And I am doing it more and more each day. Gently ... It will help me focus my wild mind better for it wanders VERY easily. But, in the right timing.
That's my speel for today. And believe it or not, today I am actually jazzed about meditation as discipline.
You might get extra jazzed by reading the "Inspiration" piece below. I LOVE Diana's thoughts ... By the way, she suggests starting with 5-minutes a day for meditation. Guess I am not doing as badly as I thought. :-)
You might get extra jazzed by reading the "Inspiration" piece below. I LOVE Diana's thoughts ... By the way, she suggests starting with 5-minutes a day for meditation. Guess I am not doing as badly as I thought. :-)
As always, I welcome your thoughts. I love to hear how you are doing. Breathe on!
Love and blessings,
Jan
Read on ...From Where I Sit — Day 6, My Meditation Experience
Yesterday, I did a mini "zazen" sit with a Zen teacher through You Tube. See Resources below. It cracked me up! When the "lesson" was done I sat in silence for 5 more minutes.
I did 5-minutes of deep breathing while in the bathtub. I became so relaxed I nearly fell asleep.
Not a great day for meditation, thus my post today. Discipline!
Recommended Resources:
Click here to learn a bit more about your wildmind works and how to move beyond it with this "Sit-a-Long" with Jundo. He's filming these short videos from a Zendo in Japan. But be prepared to laugh or get incredibly irritated. He does make a brilliant point. I'd love to hear your thoughts on this ...
Inspiration: (This, from Diana Lang, a future special guest expert here. Stay tuned!)
Most of us do not know how to be alone. We are afraid of the dark when we are little, and we're afraid of the dark ourselves when we grow up. We learn to fill in the spaces with TV and newspapers and drugs and busyness and anything we can think of, anything not to be alone. But if you can examine the word alone it comes from the compound word all-one, and there's a big difference between the words alone and lonely.
When we meditate we enter into ourselves. Sooner or later, we discover something very precious. We touch upon the diamond of our heart. Sometimes there's mud all over it, but don't let that fool you—it's still a diamond. The mud is our shame, our pain, our beliefs of unworthiness and separateness. These are all common misconceptions of the ego. It shrouds our light.
When we meditate we discover that we are not alone. We find our deep connection to the whole of life, and we come to know that we are all one. We are loved. We are good. We are forgiven.



32 comments:
Thank you Jan for all the thoughtful things you are posting every day! I always appreciate. Part of my commitment to the 28days is tracking my practice. So far I've meditated between 5-15 minutes every day since I started (day 3). I don't do it at the same time or same way. Yet. It feels like "not enough" until I come here and see others with the same self-critical thoughts. When I started meditating first time, many years ago, I used A Course in Miracles, a page a day for a year with a focus affirmation each day. That really showed me how to slow down my mind.
When I realized that I needed a regular meditation practice, I started with 5 minutes. It was a few weeks before I moved it to 10 and now I sit for 20 minutes. Sometimes I set apart extra time but 15-20 minutes first thing in the morning is my discipline. I want to expand my practice to include walking meditation and more mindfulness practices, but this would be in addition to the sitting. I think of this practice kind of like I think of yoga...it's in the daily routine that the true progress comes.
But as for how much time? I like what Sylvia Boorstein said, "How long you sit doesn't matter. Chickens sit on their nests for days at a time without becoming enlightened. Sitting isn't meditation. Sitting with mind composed, with attention alert and the faculty of investigation receptive to the awakening of understanding - THAT'S meditation."
Thanks Jan for posting the comment. :)
I feel better knowing that I do have a bit of discipline...my style is just not that conventional...and that is OK. We all need to do what works for us...and in our own time.
I especially love the inspiration from Diana Lang you posted today. I used to not like being alone. But now I crave the quiet. I like to do things by myself. I actually need it.
Oh...I did stumble across this short zen poetry site that I would like to share with everyone...really good stuff that might help?
Here is the link to the poem I really liked...but I suggest exploring more if you have the time.
http://www.short-zen-poems.com/2010/01/koan-38.html
Hello Jan, my thoughts on the advice from Mari to: "Getting regular" - I had been meditating just before bed but recently have been trying different times of the day. "Getting an instructor & group support" - I have never even thought about doing this. I guess I feel this is a personal journey to be enjoyed at my own pace. If I did this, I would have to make appointments, get dressed, drive there, etc. That is just too much trouble for me...I like to have the freedom to meditate when the mood hits me. I guess the closest I have ever come to this step is taking part in your challenge. "Using tapes/cd's" - I don't use them every day but I do very much like the use of cd's. I have viewed the guided sessions from your youtube link and also enjoyed that. I guess the plain music is the best for me because I like to close my eyes.
I tell people I know all the time how they should try to incorporate meditation into their lives because of the way it has helped me. Sometimes I get the feeling, most people think you are weird (like people used to think about "hippies") if you meditate...I wish they could understand, that is not the case at all. Maybe one day...I will be able to get SOMEONE to listen & get involved. When I first started using this theme as a guide for my blog, I only knew it was something I wanted to learn more about..Now, after a year of blogging & researching...I KNOW how popular it really is. Thank you for all you do here.
I would also like to let you & your readers know about a website I found for Native American meditation flute music. This man, Scott August is amazing...I hope you all can visit his website to see for yourself. www.cedarmesa.com
Oh, this is such a great post for a beginning meditator like me. Thank you. This whole project is a delicious journey for me.
2 days ago I did not meditate, did not make time for it.
But yesterday I did in the bath tub. (Hope that's not cheating?) At first I tried meditating while laying on my back but the little bubbles popping right by my ears were distracting, so I sat up lotus-style and that was so refreshing and great, just paying attention to the sound of my breath going slowly and deeply in and out in a nice warm room. Only for 2 minutes but I felt so peaceful afterward.
Today, I will try a mantra, maybe just one word. Like "Love." That'll be good one! Not in the tub today, but it's so cold here I will be bundled up with a big blanket over me as I sit cross-legged on the floor. Or heater is not working as well as it could, keeping us about 68 degrees - but that's better than the current 27 outside!
All-one and alone -- that is such a beautiful thought. We really are not ever alone, are we?
xo
Cindy,
Most welcome! It sounds like you are doing VERY well saying faithful to your unfolding practice. I think small steps are good. Gentle steps, as Laura (Shine the Divine) says. I call them Baby Steps. "Inch by inch, everything is a cinch." The Course has definitely been very valuable to many folks...:-)
Twila,
Good for you! Expanding is done, as you say with a blend of gentleness and discipline, staying mindful of when we may get too lax or lazy. I LOVE walking meditation (though outdoors, not in). Appreciate the quote from Syliva. Yep, she is my gal too. I adore her...
Caroline,
We do have to honor what works for each of us. And if you are more eclectic gal, then why wouldn' t your practice be eclectic too. I'd also add this: very creative people tend to need a variety of practices. I know I do....I will check out the poetry. Thank you!
Caroline,
I bookmarked the site. Fabulous!
Liz,
I appreciate you sharing your own rundown and am happy to hear that you are honoring yourself right now. So important for our total well-being. It does take time for a blog to find its place and for us to find our niche. I think the main thing is to be true to what is in our hearts and let our passion shine.
And thanks for the link to the music. I will check it out!
Jannie,
Actually I do some of my best meditating in the bathtub! (No bubbles though, they make my skin itchy. LOL. Wish they didn't, bubbles are fun.) So I am glad this is helping you find your way as a budding meditator. It's all good! And, yes, community is awesome. It makes a huge difference in our spiritual progress, I believe. Stay warm!
I just wanted to come back and relate my meditation experience today.
Whew...it was hard...
My mind is swirling and screaming today. Too many thoughts. Things about what I need to do...emails to write...calls to makes...bills to pay. I felt like I had a big word cloud in my head.
While taking the dogs for a walk I really really concentrated on listening. Not to my mind...but what I heard outside...around me:
nails clicking against the pavements, cars driving past, panting, crows, a baby crying in the distance, lawn mower, truck backing up, leashes clacking, birds chirping, my feet, my breath.
All of this happening in this moment. I could not believe all the things I could hear when I separated all the different sounds.
And for a few sacred moments...the word cloud in my head disappeared.
I am somewhat regular, if that's possible. I generally meditate in the mornings, but on days I work, I sometimes shift it ti nightime.
I was originally instructed by one teacher, and now have another both for psychotherapy and teaching. We talk 1-4 xs a month, depending on his teachinh schedule and retreats.
Support is so key. I no longer go to a local meditation place, but make it up to Spirit Rock, a meditation home away from home when I can for daylong sitting/instruction and 1-2 silent meditation retreats a year.
I often use guided compassion meditations, since this is what I often need. There is no 'right' CD, only the one that speaks to your heart.
Jan has provided some great resourses here. If you are ver in N. California, or are looking for a reason to be, Spirit Rock is so beautiful, mostly taught in the Buddhist tradition of Mindfulness Meditation:
www.spiritrock.org
I also love esalen, though I haven't been there in some time.
www.esalen.org
Caroline,
I am glad you broke through the cloud thoughts! I always tell people when the mind gets so jazzed like that, an energetic (electrical) current has been set up and the very best thing we might do for ourselves is to move. To walk, run, twirl, dance, do yoga, anything to break the circuit.
Listening meditation like you did is VERY powerful. It can really shift things. And then perhaps you just need to take an afternoon and just scratch tons of stuff off your To Do list. When I do that, (did a bunch of that on Wed), boy did I feel good. Clear the clutter, if you know what I mean. As women we are just multitasking all the time and it is definitely good for our mental well-being. :-) Here's a cyber hug!!!!
Yes, I have a regular practice of sitting each morning after my bath. My yoga mat and bell are always in front of the window; they remind me to come sit. I don't usually sit for very long, but sometimes I get in the zone and can stay there for 20 minutes. I get instruction from teachers like Ane Pema Chodron through books. I have the support of a meditation group in my city. We meet once a week and sit for 30-40 minutes after a dhamma talk. I have not yet felt a need to use CDs.
These are wonderful, inspiring thoughts. I wish I could sit myself down more often and stick to my practice. I will keep turning to you for the courage; I need to turn inward for the discipline!
Ugh...#1 on the list is my nemesis. Making it a regular habit at a prescribed time. You, your team of experts, and your commenters are my Teachers. I have a CD I've used in the past. Perhaps it's time to pull that out again.
Twila - Ha! Love the chicken reference. I will forever recall that when I prepare to 'sit' in the future.
Mermaid,
Yes, support is key and I know it has been vital to your growth in recent years, mine too. Wise friends, wise teachers, wise companions to sit or retreat or study with. It all makes such a difference. I would not be at the place I am today without very wise mentors. I wrote about one here. I am so very grateful for them all. http://www.jungleoflife.com/2009/12/09/frank-and-me-a-legacy-of-mentoring-giveaway-post/
(And then you know that YTS (my book) features 12 of the women mentors I've had over the years. )
To go on retreat as you are able to do really propels our journey in advanced ways. I wish everyone could go on a retreat of some sort. Thank you for sharing what you are doing and what is working for you. It shows!
Ms. Kiki,
I admire your determination and faithfulness. It takes passion to do what you do and stay on a mindful road of awakening and awareness. I love the idea of your mat and bell being out to always remind you to come sit. Perhaps I should try that!
Cindy,
Well, honestly, I have really been struggling with "regular time." I have been trying to meditate in the morning and I am not doing too well. My energy is very high in the morning. I am a "pop out of bed person," happy and energized. So, today, I am going to try meditating after dinner. My chores are done. Brad likes to be at his computer for awhile. I will let you know how it goes. These teachers inspire me onward!
Carolynn,
Oh, sorry! But as you can read in my comment to Cindy, I am right there with all of you. I am great at mindfulness, and mindfully moving through my days (you wrote about that yesterday here) but regular? The word sometimes strikes terror because I really like to mix things up. :-) So let's keep each other motivated, OK, to keep on keeping' on!
Hi Jan.
I have been reading the posts and the comments and I am still not sure about meditation.
I have quieten down and compacted my life considerably.
I work where I live, I eat from my own veggie garden and I do the work that I am learning from myself.
I am committed to inner peace and have been working on that consistently with everything I do.
I watch my body, my breathing and take regular stops during what I am doing to center myself during the day at regular intervals.
I am watching my peacefulness a lot during the day.
I want to attain peacefulness with everything I do, the dishes, writing this comment, folding washing and when dealing with conflict or things I do not want to hear.
I do not know if regular meditating practice can add to that, when I feel I am doing little mini ones a lot during the day.
I just looked out of the window to watch a spider, I allow myself that.
Hmm, so I will keep thinking, observing and reading this.
Thanks Jan for the opportunity to ponder this this way.
I so want to be a morning meditator. It just has not happened yet - my mind is too busy thinking about the day ahead. So I have been meditating at night, just before bed, which has actually been helping me sleep. Night before last I started with "all is well and all will be well" and then I had visions of clouds; but my gaze kept dipping to earth and observing all the things at ground level, which was distracting. Last night I repeated "be still and know that I am God" and shortened that until I was at "be still;" a red balloon appeared and I followed it as it moved among the clouds, which helped me focus and relax and clear my mind. That worked for a few minutes until the balloon got caught in the trees. I am a work in progress.
Thank you, Jan, wonderful information on your blog & all who post !
I too do not have a regular (clock) time to meditate.
I do sit right after I wake up , before my yoga practice.
But my wake-up time can really vary.
I try to sit again later in the day.
Often, I put it off 'till bedtime-sometimes it just doesn't happen.
I would love to go to a retreat center -(Cloud Mountain was recommended to me)-or have a live teacher or sitting community.
Funny thing I noticed yesterday-as my mind was busy elsewhere , musing, deciding if I should make some tea, my body was moving towards the stairs & my meditation area.
Ok, I get it.
Time to meditate !
Geeze Louise, is right!
Couldn't do this without your sweet invitation.
Thanks for your humor and honesty, Jan - helps keep those meditation police at bay.
It's interesting that I finally decided to join your Meditation Challenge and it became the week from hell. And I didn't have (or make) time for it when I needed it most. I did "catch" a few moments of deep breathing here and there - that I probably wouldn't have done if it weren't for the challenge - so thank you! :)
Well, Jan, you have touched a real chord in me! Although I feel my life is all about living spiritually, meditation in its purest form has never ever fit for me. I do meditate, but in my own way. I do not sit lotus style (hip and back problems prevent this), I do not chant, I do not do the traditional style. However, I would like to ask, if you have a spiritual practice that is not "traditional" in any way, does that devalue it or make it "less than"? In other words, can't we lighten up on "rules" even of meditating, and allow people to find their own way of connecting spritually? It feels too constraining to me to meditate in the traditional way but walking the beach, watching the birds, being with nature in any way takes me deeper and deeper into Spirit than any meditation ever has. I do visualize, I go into the Akashic Records and do other spiritual practices and am able to feel totally balanced and spiritual without being traditionally based. So I'm wondering if more freedom around this might help people who are struggling with trying to do it "right"....just a thought. Not that doing it "right" is "wrong"! Not at all. It's just that not all of us are meant to meditate this way. And once I allowed myself freedom around meditation, that is when my "practice" really took off.
I do think that a traditional practice is so valuable when one is beginning. But once begun, and if one has discipline, I believe one can go on to find his or her own way. What are your thoughts about this?
Wilma,
I appreciate your honesty and the way that you are pondering...Wonderful!
It sounds like you have created a very mindful, conscious, and "meditative" life for yourself. That is glorious and should be celebrated. Now, the fact that you might add another practice to that is obviously up to you. Will it enhance? Will it open you up to more? Good things to consider. But, truthfully, I think we will never have the answers to any these questions until we dive in and explore for ourselves, firsthand.
I launched this Challenge because I wanted a Challenge! My life is very conscious, mindful, deliberate, and more. But I sensed I was dodging sitting meditation. I wanted to explore that and I am. It is opening me up in ways that I have not even written about here yet. The doors are opening wide. Old stories are being let go. Freedom calls! I am amazed at what is transpiring under the surface and, now, showing up in my life.
This Challenge is all about exploring. If someone wants to explore, fine. If not, fine. I hope that my spiritual life will never become static. That I will always take myself to the edge of what fears may be holding me back and let them go. I am coming to understand that my "fear" of sitting was sourced in a fear of letting go. To be in the "nothing," free-falling, arms open wide, allowing to happen what will happen, and trusting that I will land just fine. For me, sitting is about letting go of control. Big stuff!
So if sitting is not for you, great. Are there other avenues of meditation you'd like to explore? If not, fine. Be who you are. Be who the Universe is calling you to be. And be well....Breathe...Smile.
Love to you!
Sharon,
I am going to nickname you "Ms. Faithful"! I love how you keep exploring, expanding, inviting yourself to more. Like you, I just realized in the past couple of days that my time to "sit" may be in the afternoon or evening. In the morning, I am very contemplative, but my mind is still charging up for writing. I am "an early bird catches the worm" sort of person (I know the kind of early, smiley riser that drives other people crazy!) but, hey, that's me. So I have doing one kind of contemplative practice in the a.m. and one in the evening (sitting) and it's going very well. I think I'm finding my rhythm. I am glad that you are trying to find yours. xo
Karen,
Your self-observations are lovely and heart-centered. I feel your compassion for yourself. I think everyone should gift themselves with a retreat experience at least once a year. I hope you will get yours!
Teachers are fairly easily had. Often it is just a matter of who you resonate with and asking them if they will take you on as a student! Seriously, it can be that easy.
As for a community, sangha, it appears the internet is doing that for many folks. I live nowhere near a meditation community and the nearest two (5 hrs. away each) are not of a tradition I feel comfortable with. So I have other ways that I connect with community. And just knowing that so many others are embracing spiritual life ways similar to mine is so enlivening. There are no borders or boundaries for a sangha. It is all a matter of perspective. Everyone belongs.
Linda,
You are welcome. May this community continue to inspire and invite you to more.
Rochelle,
Well sometimes this is true. In fact, I have often had people remark who enter into formal meditation practice or even spiritual direction/mentoring that things may implode or get tougher in their life before it gets better. In mystical terms this can be called "purification." Meaning, everything that your ego dominates, everything that holds you back from being your truest self, may have to be overturned so that you can get to the core of your journey. This happened to me in 2001 and it was not pretty! But I wrote a bit about it in my book (Your Truest Self).
Perhaps this is also an invitation from the Universe for you to call upon these practices more often because they will provide you with calm and clarity--and inner wisdom for how to relate to a situation. :-) Hang in there!
Diantha,
I am glad that you are honoring your inner wisdom. I do hope that participants will do the same, yet remain open to new explorations and discoveries...Much of what I would say to you, I just wrote in reply to Wilma (above.) There are no right ways or wrong ways to do this journey. We established that in Day One. No Meditation Police here.
But there are wonderful viewpoints to be shared and I wish to feature these here so people can make good choices. One of which was the subject of today's post via Mari. Mari would also say to be loving and compassionate to yourself--that that may be one of the highest "meditation practices."
I agree with you, that once we "let go" so much more comes in! Blessings abound. :-) xo
Tonight I go meditate and practice with diligence what i have learned. Love and Light, Nina P
I have a love-hate relationship with discipline. (Don't we all?) What I battle with most are the messages from my childhood - that I am lazy, unproductive, undisciplined. Somehow, I adopted those messages as part of my identity, and I am just now seeing how much they affected my life. The same with Diana's comment about being afraid of the dark and silence - being alone, in the dark and silence, was used as a punishment when I was a child. Sitting with the television and lights off brings up some very negative feelings.
I'm not sure how to overcome those, except by doing and reinforcing the truth. I'm going to look into some guided meditations, I'm sure that will be helpful as well.
For now, my daily five minutes of conscious breathing, my not-so-daily-but-regular sacred reading are what I can do, so I do them and feel blessed to know I am at the very beginning of a new life adventure.
Sometimes, it really is baby steps.
Thanks so much, Jan, for sharing these resources and introducing us to such wonderful teachers. And thanks to everyone participating for sharing their thoughts as well.
Nina,
I hope your meditation evening was blessed...
Joni,
You bring up an excellent point. Our childhood messages can really impede with our meditation progress--because when we do sit still or get quiet much arises. Might I suggest the practice of Tonglen? Do you know anything about that? It is using our sacred breath to clear negative feelings that arise. If you are interested, I can provide you with some info on that. Let me know, OK? Just being at ease with what arises is key, knowing we are safe and well in the company of our own breath. Also if we trust and have a relationship with the Divine, we can call (draw) upon that to help us stay calm and centered -- no matter what comes. That is why I love the mantra I once wrote about for MWF - "I am safe, I am loved, I am free."
Thank you for sharing this profound and tender insight....Hugs!
LOVE Jundo. We are actually going to "Sit-A-Long" with him today. I think we all have to face that on some days, it is just not practical to sit for a long time. But, it only takes seconds to be mindful, and you can do it any where!
April,
So glad that you found Jundo! I so enjoyed his podcasts. They were very helpful to me. I hope others will find his series at the Shambhala Sun blog. Be well!
Mea Culpa...Mea culpa...I have not meditate in a few days...Except for a few minutes of silence here and there.Christmas decorations have taken over my life, but I just finished 2o minutes and tonight I am joining my meditation community for another session.
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